i fall apart all the time. i am constantly either really happy or faking. i need something. many somethings have happened but nothing is big enough to fix everything. nothing.

I liked you better when you had a smaller bed. When I’d sleep over, you had to sleep close to me. And you’d whisper “Oh you’re so much trouble.” And I’d whisper “No, you’re the one who’s trouble.”

And lately I’ve been thinking maybe I’m the one who’s trouble.

especially you

especially me

the depressed wreck

the shitty friend

leave me here

forget about me darlings

i don’t exist

or matter to you

adios bitches.

You know it ain’t easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There’s no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I’m telling you
These feelings won’t go away
They’ve been knockin’ me sideways
They’ve been knockin’ me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won’t go away
They’ve been knockin’ me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won’t go away.